Something I don’t talk about or share my feelings about, getting pregnant after miscarriages. I am so blessed to be pregnant with our sweet Haizel. But it feels so unreal. How is the possible? She is eighteen weeks along now.
I was shocked when we found out I was expecting. We were trying and I sadly didn’t believe it when we went for an ultrasound and saw a heartbeat. I still have that thought in my head, that ”what if.” Seeing her move on ultrasounds, her little hands, puts ease on my heart. I think I’m slowing feeling her light movements.
The kids will be all three years apart. Although I wish they would be a few years closer, I think it is a good thing. Miscarriages can be hard and tough. Our first one hit me HARD. Took a toll on me. The second one I was ok with because I knew how to cope with it. I feel like I replace them with Haizel sometimes and I know it’s not that way. In anyway. Maybe our timing was right with Haizel. Maybe God had better plans for our angels. I have an ultrasound of our angel baby hanging in our house and pass by it everyday. In remembrance of the sweet short nine weeks we had together.
I have been there for a few people to talk to and share one on one feelings and experiences with miscarriages. I know how it feels when no one has been there and not knowing what to say, only sorry. I am here to talk to you and help you through this time.
With love,
Hailey.